Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Adoration Activity

I don't think reading during Adoration is wrong, by any means, but I've felt increasingly odd lately about it. Why? I feel like I am ignoring Jesus. If He were sitting in front of me in the flesh, I certainly would not be reading a book; I'd be talking to Him. Actually, I'd probably be flat on my face, wordless in fear and awe. So, why read in His Presence? He's still there, looking at me.

Last time I went I brought some cross stitch with me. It was very peaceful and I could 'talk' more easily without getting distracted, bored or fidgety.

What do you think? What do you do during Adoration?

Treat me right

On the way home from work today I heard the old 80's song by Pat Benatar called Treat Me Right. Remember that one? Remember her? She was so little and skinny! Anyway, I was thinking about the lyrics and how it reflects some people's relationship with God and could be sung from God's point of view.

Think of all the people who use the Lord's name in vain all day long but may not spend any time in prayer. Think of all the people who largely ignore God until a tragedy befalls them. 9/11 anyone? Remember how packed churches were? Look at the confession lines and then the number of people who receive the Holy Eucharist. I don't know how He doesn't smite us all.

He doesn't smite us because He is Mercy, Compassion and Love. He offers us the opportunity to return to Him, if we are truly sorry.

Which reminds me.. I need to get to confession.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Where is my trust in Him?

I am supposed to attend a baby shower soon. I thought I could do it. But the closer it gets, the more headaches I've had; my stomach is upset; I am angry and moody.

I can't go. I had to take xanax in order to just go into the store to buy the gift and couldn't make it out of there without crying. Of course there were pregnant women and babies everywhere.

I really thought I has accepted God's will regarding my miscarriage. I thought I believed that it is an honor God chose us to help create that soul. If I were trusting and believed, wouldn't I have peace and be able to attend this shower?

I feel really selfish.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Idol Worship

How much time do you think the average person has spent on Michael Jackson's death? Probably much more time than he has in prayer or at church. Why? Why have celebrities become so all -consuming to Joe and Jane Public? America is creating its own gods and pronouncing them good.

We are inundated by television and magazines with information about celebrities, their habits, their love lives and all sorts of details of which we have no business knowing and we eat it up like candy. Magazines like People and US are filled with gossip and tawdry details. Why doesn't anyone realize it is none of our business. Yes, they are celebrities. Yes, some of them have talent but they are not the property of the people of the United States. But, they are treated as such. I would not want to be treated that way. I would not want my heartbreaks, mistakes and failures to be fodder for the great unwashed.

I used to have subscriptions to those magazines. I liked to look at them mostly for the clothes they showed, especially to awards shows. I really got sick of all the gossip and endless speculation and I felt guilty for participating in gossip. I also got sick of them using their celebrity status to push their agenda. So I quit.

There is going to be a memorial in LA for Michael Jackson. He was a poor, lost soul. It would be much better for those attending, and Michael himself, if they spent that time in prayer for the repose of his soul.